All the people I love,

all the people I care about seem so distant,

out of reach.

And I am emotionally numb to those feelings that they care.

It doesn’t help that people have died.

It doesn’t help that life stepped in the way of my safety.

I wish I could fade away to feel nothing.

I wish I lived in a world where nothing bad happens.

My own version of heaven.

I do have my wonderland which is near to me,

yet nothing tangible.

Let’s face it.

I can’t escape these feelings that are like mirrors surrounding me,

where my own reflection stairs back at me with hallow eyes.

I can’t run from myself.

I can’t run from the world.

I can’t run from the agonizing pain caused from trouble.

I can sit in my wonderland and let someone else take the lead

while I accept reality as the shitty thing it is where people

always leave.

Jesus<3MGP

#m&mspoetry